past and the future

so..it's the last day of 2008
leme think about this year
what happened
and so on
as they say, 初一是拿来玩的,初二是叛逆的
我初一的确是拿来玩的,但是初二...
是拿来发觉自己的弱点的.
基本上,3/4的时间,精力都献给了学会
do i regret that?
no:D
i learned a lot this year.
about myself,about others, about the world, about human,about leadership,about life as a group
but i kind of lost something too
or maybe,
i never used to have that something
friends?this year i knew lots of smart and terribly talented people
especially in maths
i met one whole class of intelligent people
and at times i feel not up to it
i also knew a lot of gentle girls this year
very high class>< lolx.but i also met a lot of crazy girls this year.haha boys?err....just to say, i didnt hang out much with boys this year except for with the prefects
okay,next.
results?maths i suck no doubt there...my logical mind is keksui my art is...very messy never really put my mind to doing it
next,class? fun.nice. but i would prefer if we got to sit with people we don't know still got some people i would prefer to know deeper
okay.now, for the "thanks"
thanks to: ruru-someone to go crazy with me in class
holi-someone i can talk to
wenyee-i can touch ur hair^^
jaymin-also.some to crazy with
zora-i LUV u!!!
aileng-a mighty great listener!!
kaiyu,jiawen,peiwen,shuang-haha.crazy together
joyjoy,yuyu-sorry for bothering u guys always.lolx
weiyi-always nagging u.haha
yimeng-for planning the gathering/being my friend for SO many years
perng,en,phatz,xin-my sisters since LONG ago.haha==
all the prefects-we're in the same boat!
flowers-nice memories!but i couldn't go to the gatherings>< color="#ff6600">sorry to-
prefects-well,for being stupid?
flowers-for missing out gatherings.><>< hopes for next year and the future?
-study hard
-learn how to lead
-find talent
-find out about more careers that might interest me
-have fun with my class ^^lolx.
happy new year, guys and girls
it's a new year
head for a new aim and strive towards it



P.S-me birthday ya 11jan haha><
hapi bd yeelen,chermaine,bro,zorzor,clarissa,yanling,jun and everybody else's birthday in january

倔强?

我的倔强呢?
早就决定好的
我的倔强呢?
那么快就动摇
那么快就心软
我的倔强呢?
肯定有出路的
我两个都要
怎么抉择?
应该倔强的
又是哪个?
我自己心理应该知道吧
别人失望了
说出原因?
只让人笑.
好.改了.
只剩下一个选择了
怎么办?
怕失去
又不爽
又倔强
责任,胜于玩乐.
对吧?
我,还是不果断
还是不倔强
还是不够严厉
不够有信心
好容易动摇.
我,去这营
到底有没有觉悟到?

P.S看不懂,算了.
im just writing to question myself. to test myself. to convince myself.
yes, im a coward.

back to earth

everywhere around me hurts now
ouch
jus back from the camp
wasei
SO tiring
had to run here, run there...
...
everywhere hurts!!
lolx
haiz如果问我学到了什么
是,往往不是我们做不到,而是我们不相信自己可以做到
干训干训....><
对!我们P组步操竟然拿冠军叻![我在炫耀.哈哈..]
超级无法想象!全组最少人,而且只有一个男生="权少"
其实我觉得其它组都很厉害咯
只是,我们喊的"左左左右左"是高分贝的
哎...
总觉得,自己好象缺了什么
不象其他人那么容易HIGH,不象其他人那么SMART,人际又MAMADEI
好.不比
可是总觉得自己还有更多
没有这小点罢了
可是
好怕会失去/浪费这一段时间哦
在团里回忆好多好多...
im confused?or am i thinking too much?
ii want to learn how to lead.
i want to cherish every moment with my friends.
yes!!
i also did a stupid thing.
er.i wanted to send an email with attachment of my e card
but
i kinda sent to everyone
BUT
forgot to put the attachment
stupid or not?

[交流营+everything else]

this post is several days late
haha...im attracted to the idea of typing english
but im gonna have trouble writing some stuff
so i'll stick with chinese.
第一天,一大早就到学校了
练习了一会,满身大汗[你可以想象我们有多臭HAHA]
巴士上他们一直玩什么
"这样对不对?这样对不对?OK,这样对不对?"
我到最后才明白==
尊孔...国中很象警察局.开玩笑啦...是它的建筑物很古老,很象历史遗迹.
独中呢,就很高...10多楼叻
报告一些事项,派营服,放书包,讨论...
开幕!!冷到..[我是说真的冷]
筹委会表演手语的时候我们中华的全全站起来参与
哈哈
分组!!我在-天平座
要想口号吗...超冷的...只有一个人在讲话
我做了一些很无聊的IDEA,
后大家也开始有意见了
ALAS,我们的口号-..懒得打.
ANYWAYS..就玩破冰游戏咯
踩气球!很好玩!!乱乱踩,管他认不认识...哈哈..最后我还是输了啦[...忆文....><]
然后...吃饭!!跟新的组别吃...
吃饭后就到听讲座了
"华教的故事"
可能是我太不专心,
一时睡觉一时清醒...
接着就是...跳舞!!没有啦..是手语
教我们那个好象...自己也不清楚酱..一直去问别人
可是他很可爱啦.哈哈==
冲凉咯...
分组讨论男女..准备那个黑红大赛
我在...FASHION SHOW!
可是我好象没IDEA 叻...
沈雁金葵跟我同组...随后出:HAWAII...==
吃饭后,就听多一堂讲座.
我超喜欢这个主讲人!!很喜欢他讲的东西!!
NEXT-游戏.
是"杀人案"的游戏..以前玩的都超级恐怖的
所以一开始我也很怕
结果
越来越..不恐怖了.
只是头混罢了,要做侦探
哈哈
吃SUPPER...练习...睡觉==
第二天
一大早醒来要练习
可是只有佩仪,UBI和小惠在那儿...
哎..做早操咯
跳MR.Q
WASEI!!那个活动组组长!!跳到很厉害!!!
从今以后,他叫MR.Q!
吃早餐后,选手他们都去彩排
我们叻...在外面练习
然后就到专题讨论.啊,不说了.有点闷.可是,讲的人讲得..不错啦.
继续做FASHION SHOW用品.
吃完后,到游戏啦!
先是什么交易的东东
然后就到分站的游戏..
有些很好玩,有些有少少闷.
最好玩的有两个~
传榴莲和用布拿水的.
哈哈....那个zhentao很可怜...==
冲凉后,男的穿黑衣,女的穿红衣
到礼堂吃晚饭!!最好吃的一餐咯...
可惜我们不能吃很多东西><
然后就播到这首=I like to move it move it
某间学校的就开始出去跳舞
慢慢的大家就开始绕场跑,开始HIGH了!!
接着播了很多首歌,我们大家都一直跳舞跳到傻!!哈哈...还上台那种
黑红大赛
超好看
我觉得男生,比我们合作多了=D
FASHION SHOW 最HIGH的!!![全用报子]
我们的HAWAII..性感
另一组的女的走到一半,撕掉衣服,露出BIKINI
XY和XIAOHUI=一个恶女一个SEXYLADY
哈哈...还有XUEROU=BUTTERFLY!!
还有最好笑的..
惠茹...SAKAI!!本来她就很HIGH了,一直笑个不停,害到她的衣服一直烂掉,负责她的一直要帮她贴回...哈哈.
男生的就有很多个SAKAI/土著
裤子短到.....>还有一个穿水果帽的!!
结果,男生赢了..
OF COS,过后就是继续大家的HIGH啦!!哈哈..跳舞跳到
完了后,就去跟各组,一起写一个感想
很夜了HO...还没啦!!我们去礼堂练习了一会才去睡觉
第三天
恐怖的一天
醒来后,练习
早操
换衣!!!
为了统一,领带绑过[洪良帮我们绑到三根半夜叻!!]
PIN一切的都弄过.
然后叻,吃早餐咯...要超级小心不能弄到衣服==
谢慧来咯!!大家一起喊口号
过后就进场了
哇...好多种校服哦!!
看他们一队一队的上去
都很PRO
很多老学长来...
中华上前时
我们都拍掌
不错啦!有一写错误[这是我的意见]可是我觉得都OK啦.很齐
然后就到我们出场了
怕怕!!我的眼镜脱掉了
所以看不到循人的花试操...
我们表演时
很多掌声!!!!朝开心的!!!
只有一个小错误..[根据我的...看法?]
=D
评审给评语
就散
...
换衣,吃东西,玩最后一次的交易
闭幕,看照片,拍照,离开
还记得,吃东西时我刚好跟三个循人的做在一起
我问他们我们操得怎样?
哈哈...很有气势叻...且我们才初二初三水准不错哦..
...还有说,我们的花式很想跳舞
哈哈..的确啦
BUS上...常委骂到...
我不想提了
anyways
im SO glad to have entered this camp
SO glad to have known so many people[actually, not that much lah..haha]
so...thank you!![to everyone lah]
我没有认识带坤成的叻...遗憾><
lolx
我的天空,我的梦
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now it's the "everything else" section!!
bakery lessons with my aunt!
haha...
slept over there with two of my cousins..7 yrs and 3 yrs
then in the morning, went along to buy some stuff
then started making brownies!!
=D...they said it was the easiest to make of all
ah well
it was VERY nice to eat when hot
yum
then me and me cousin started making cards
for me granma's bd
haha
after lunch it was baking time again!!
this time, we made Butter shortcakes
in forms of all types of shapes
haha
the fun part was making all those shapes
i made a gingerbread man, snowman, and my cousin's hand!!
haha
[i just realised i kept using the word "haha"]
anyways
we kept on making cards...till me granpa/ma came to fetch me=D
made a date for another bakery lesson
so the second bakery lesson was made
this time, my OTHER aunt brought me, me cousin and another aunt out to 1 U
to shop.
window shopping
din buy anything except for 1 thing
MAMMA MIA!!THE MOVIE!!
hoho.
then my aunt fetched me to my OTHER aunt's house[the one teaching me baking]
had dinner with them all
then went to my aunt's house to prepare to sleep
i watched a bit of the Oprah Winfrey's show, then watched 200 pounds beauty
i LOVE that show!!!
"maria!!ave maria!!"
then went to sleep.oh wait, before that
i off-ed a switch
and the whole house's electricity tripped!!
woo...
anyways
i didin't sleep for a long time cos was talking to my cousin.
or playing.
then in the middle of the night
me 3 yrs old cousin started crying for her mum
man, i couldn't sleep!
so i patted her...
then she fell asleep
as for me..
><
next morning
made pancakes
it's my first time=
MAKING pancakes, FLIPPING pancakes!!!
wee!!
then, i helped me aunt to peel some stuff
fry an egg[FIRST TIME TOO!believe it or not]
then played with my 3yrs old cousin
dolls and all
then make CHOC COOKIES!yun
ate lunch
made some cards.
MADE OATMEAL COOKIES!another YUM
then FINALLY
set off to me gran's house.
lolx><
another anything
zy (co) published four cards recently
wanna see them?
haha/only those four people get to see them.
==
class list is out!
3 zhong!
woo
okay..SAME WITH ZORZOR!
and a lot more people
haha
but tak da with .==
lolx
anyway
look into your email inbox
i might have sent a card to you
to those who didn;t
here's to you=
Merry christmas!!

last

this is going to be my last post for a lot of days..
so just coming up here to say
GOODBYE
sob.
im still sad i can't go to hleong's house
but AM looking forward to the camp
wish we have a wonderful time
wish we have a wonderful performance
YAY!
merry christmas everyone!

yp!happy birthday!

flower LAST at Mastiara

last time of practice at Mastiara...
today there was only us, flowers.
even roger didn't come
we ran for 8 rounds..first time i didn't stop!!wowee!!
the nwe started practicing
wasei man
it was so tiring
at least, my leg was very tired
we weren't really good
and it was the second last practice already!!
aah..
after getting scold by our commander
we got better.
kept practicing..didn't even stop to eat lunch
then we all sat and rest..talking about..
erm...
weird stuff
from breast cancer to sex to condoms...yucks
it's so hard, i think, to get cancer or any kind of long term illness
it's like, once you get it, you know it'll be your burden for the rest of your life.
it's so...
well..
hard.
anyway..we continued practicing and FINALLY finished
we wanted to go eat paobing
then, we saw 168
last time going there!
so we went there to yamcha
no lah..i drank lohanguoxut
after that we sat at the roadside, waiting for T225...
we waited for SUCH a long time and NO bus appeared.
...
Is the transportation system at Ma. so bad?
traffic jams, unpunctual shedules, traffic accidents...
once when it was raining really heavily, even the FLYOVER was FLOODING
==
by the time we got out to buy uniform, it wa sgoing to rain and quite late.
but the uniform was cheap
haha
after that, we decided NOT to go eat paobing already
SOB
i HAVEN'T ate before!!!
next time gathering we MUST go there!!
MUST!!
lolx
ate at sungai mas there.
then, followed xy and xh to look for some throat lozenges at a few shops.
finish
oh, and we squat-ted down 300 times
every 50 times we crumble to the floor.
haha..wat a picture we were
i realized that
there is just SO many things i don't know.
i never had the experience of navigating through some place alone
i never SAT on a bus alone
i never really ate at roadside stalls a lot...
i know, it may be due to me being a coward
but,
any other things leading up to it?
i wonder.
or maybe i just ain't observant enough
going to be missing for quite some time after a few posts.
haha

tags. ALL.

1st type:
tagged by Lim Jay Ming
The Self
[01] Real name : Tan Zhai Yun
[02] Nickname : Nat
[03] Married : single and available(JOKING!)
[04] Zodiac Sign: capricorn
[05] Gender: somewhere between a Boy and a girl
[06] Age: 14 08
[07] High school: dun wan tell u
[08] College: lalala
[09] Height: 150++
[10] Weight: 43
[11] Do you like yourself:not really..
[12] Piercing: non!!
[13] Right or left : whaddya mean?
[14] Are you a freak:kinda
[15] Hair: totally black
[16] Skin: brown.black
[17] Allergic: to prawns?
[18] What are you doing now : typing,duh
[19] What will you do 1 hour later : watch tv
[20] What will you do 10 years later : earn lots of money(HAHAHAHA)
[21] Live with mother/father/parents: parents
[22] Siblings(included you): bro..let you guess how many
[23] Eldest: tan something
[24] Youngest: hahaha
[25] Love/hate your family: LOVE.duh
The Love
[26] You found your another half: non
[27] If yes, who is he/she: -
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: no idea
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: non.im pure
[30]-[40]=non.
[41] Your first best friend: all !
[42] Your first enemy: non
[43] The friend you love the most(1 only): all.
[44] The enemy you hate the most(1 only): non
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: all.
[46] Your most handsome boy friend: all.haha
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: life's aim is to gap zai and so carefree till out of control
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: smoke,drink beer, life's aim to gap lui
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: non
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: non
[51] If your friend backstabbing you :be careful, but will forgive.
[52] If your friend betray you: like [51]
[53] If your friend woo your lover: see if he is loyal
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: watever lah
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: dunno.
The Studies
[56] Are you a good student: yes?
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: yes
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: dunno wor
[59] Always late to school/college: Nope
[60] Your class: dun wan tell u
[61] You love your seniors: uh huh?
[62] Seniors who you love the most: watever
[63] Your classmates good/bad: Good
[64] Excellent result classmate: okay okay lah
[65] Laziest classmate: dunno
[66] Smart people: all
[67] Stupid people: me
[68] Good looking people: all
[69] Ugly people: me
[70] Funny people: all
[71] Cute people: all
[72] Bad people: me
[73] Honest people: never noticed...
[74] Acting people: a lot loh
[75] You are what kind of people: crazy type
[76] Lip or eyes: Eyes
[77] Hugs or kisses: hugs
[78] Shorter or taller: Shorter
[79] Hesitant or spontaneous:
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: non.neither
[81] Listener or Talker: both
[82] Romantic or rich:neither
[83] Good wife or good mother: ??
[84] Age to get marry: dunno?
[85] Numbers of kid(s): ??
[86] Career: dunno yet
[87] Salary: dunno
[88] Retirement age: dunno
[89] Properties value: enough to last me
[90] Wishes: world peace and safety, happiness for everyone
2nd type
tagged by: Clarissa,Leshin, Huiru
1. The last person to tag you are? above 3
2. Your relationship with him/her? friendship everlasting
3. Your 5 impression towards him/her ? good,caring,wonderful,friendly,beautiful
4. The most memorable thing that he/she has ever done for you ? to actually remember me
5. The most memorable words that he/she has say to you ? everything
6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will:gay much?lolx
7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will:cry
8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on:the gender.haha
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is:i did something stupid
10. The most desirable things to do with him/her is:continue being friends
11. Overall impression towards him/her is:lovely
12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you ?crazy and uncaring
13. The character for you for yourself is ? stupid
14. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is ?no self confidence
15. If you’ve a chance to choose how a person you wanna be:anything God wants me to be
16. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them:uh..i LUB you
17. Ten people to tag
1.holy
2. leshin
3. ubi
4. wen yee
5. hsin yee
6. i-lyng
7. weijian
8. yi ming
9. jayming
10. ryan
[above people DONT need to do it if you DON"t want to]
18. Who is number 2 having a relationship with ? no idea
19. Is 3 a male or a female ?female
20. If number 7 and 10 got together, would that be a good thing ?impossible.unless they're gay
21. How about 5 and 8 ?nay
22. What is number 1 studying about ? sex.JOKING!
23. When was the last time you had a chat with them ? long time ago
24. Is number 4 single ? think so
25. Say something about number 2. leshin, can't believe you still remember me!!i LOVE YOU!!
type3
tagged by :ubi,jia qi
幸福套餐 NO。1♥
01 你的绰号 : nat
02 年龄 : 14 on 2008
03 生日 : 11/1/1994{remember ya}
04 星座 : capricorn
05 兴趣 : art.music.talking.everything!
06 专长 : 好象没有叻...幸
福套餐 NO。2♥01
你有没有喜欢的人? : 没
02 是否在交往? : 没
03 现在幸福吗? : 超级
04 如果上天给你勇气，最想做什么事? : 去认识一个人.LOLX
05 如果有天,你爱的人跟你告白的话? : "是吗?我也是哦..hihiihi...malu lah"
幸福套餐 NO。3♥
01 点你的人是: ubi,jia qi
02 他是你的 : friends!
03 他的个性? : like family
04 认识他多久? : one is last year, one is this year
05 你觉得他怎样? : part of me.
06 你想对他说什么 : thank you for everything!
幸福套餐 NO。4♥
01 最爱的节目 : nodame Cantabile!
02 最爱的音乐 : everything?
03 最爱的季节 : summer
04 最爱的卡通 : erm.all studio Ghibli's
05 最爱的人 : friends!families!
06 最爱的颜色 : 灰,蓝,红,粉色系,天底下所有的颜色
07 最爱的国家 : Malaysia and New Zealand
08 最爱的天气 : sui bian lah...not thunderstorm then ok
幸福套餐 NO。5♥
01 如果上天给你三个愿望: 1)世界平安2)家人朋友幸福快乐安全3)大家快乐每一天!
02 你是很专一的人吗 : nono
03 最深刻的回忆? : All my time with my friends and families
04 你是个很有信心的人吗? : absolutely no
05 你很爱微笑吗 : of course=D能笑为何不笑?
06 如果你要放弃你现在的生活，你愿意吗 : 不愿意!
07 妄想什么样的生活 : 大家快乐,没有猜疑,没有恶念头,与朋友家人happily ever after!
08 是否横刀夺爱才是爱 : nonnon
notice the font size difference?coz it's same as down there, so it's smaller.
take notice, im not doing this anymore

cockroach festo

After the mosquito "wen you" they sprayed around my neighbourhood,
LOTS of cockroaches came out. Okay, it went like this:
i went to the kitchen and saw one BIG cockrach. i screamed#1[duh, normal reaction]
then i saw the SECOND cockrach, smaller one following it. i screamed#2 AGAIN.
then i ran tip toed to the front. after some minutes or sth, i went back again
this time i saw the BIG cockroach at the stove, the SMall cockroach climbing up the sink
i screamed#3 AGAIN.ran to the front, my mum accompanied me to the back. went past the cupboard and a cockroach FLEW past . screamed #4.stood on top of the chair and didn't dare to come down. eew....
then, i went to the kitchen and cooked rice, all the while tip toed and sweating.
then ,at night my bro asked me to open the door. went out, saw FOUR dead cockroaches at the door. Went out further, my bro saw even MORE dead cockroaches.
he forced me to clean them up. URGH.
so i used the broom to put them on the ..what's that called?sao zou..
THEY WERE STILL ALIVE!!!
screamed#5,#6,#7
haha.
okay. now for past experiences
#1.
put my hand down the sink and two antennas came out.
the rest you can imagine
#2.
a cockroach on the curtain of my room next to my bed
#3.
wanting to wear a shoe and a cockroach came out of it onto my skirt
#4.
a cockroach in my bag, after my bro beat it dead, green goo came out of it
#5.
climbed past my feet.
#6.
flew and stopped at Weiyi's face
#7.
went in the toilet and saw two cockroaches fighting
#8.
i can't remember.
want to know the reason why im so afraid of them?
=
long time ago,
someone told me that they would climb in your ears.
how many times my bro told me it's not true, the phobia is still there.
EEW
after the spray, not only my HOUSE had a lot of dead cockroaches,
on the road, there were too.
so,
in this 21st century, not only we have cutting-edge technology,
we have
a
COCKROACH INFESTED CITY.
the end


p.s. whoever who tagged me, i'll return later.im lazy to do so...lolx

xut.ice.bing.

lately i've got addicted to cold stuff
lo han go xut; kokfa xut;xut cha;ice green tea;ice everything;ice kacang;cold water shower
issit because i spent so many hours HOT?
lolx...
im not in the MOOD to march today
kept making mistakes
sorry everyone!!
especially after the ending time, when i had to go [mii granpa's waiting!]
but i wonder about something.
roger kept saying, it's X 15 now.it's X 30 now...
but then on the car, half way home, i glance at my watch and uh...
it was just X 21
??was he just saying to make us NOT make anymore mistakes?
lolx..or maybe it was just my watch, being slow.
anyway
it's so tiring already...first ti me i ran whole 8 rounds.dying==
doing the same movements again and again
because we weren't err...齐
有够累的...
但是下星期就是表演[算是表演吧?都不是比赛}
所以...
再累也是需要的!
虽然
我觉得我父母不会再给我参加了[nex time, i mean IF i have the chance again]...
flower hands add oil

p.s. me typing chinese is just WAY weird.hmm.

singapore+sarawak

Singapore
nice trip,sitting the MRT everywhere, walking MILES and MILES
ending up with a VERY sore leg everyday night...
lolx..
but it was fun actually, to see Stamford Raffles up front
haha...i think, knowing sejarah, history is even BETTER when u get to see the landmarks and places and documentaries...
u get to FEEL and REMEMBER it more
it's like a better way to study.lolx
had to take care of my younger cousin all the way..
she's seven and looks like a miniature version of me
haha
lolx...taking care of children is HARD JOB
i don't know how those nannies cope with it lolx
they talk non stop and say some unfunny things which they think is funny..
and they have all the energy in the world!
but then, at the end of the day, u'll just think that they're cute
and they let you remember memories of the past=D
i guess that's why nannies can bear children

sarawak
haha
don't think i ACTUALLY went to sarawak
lolx...about running, i hate it
today XY asked us how much we hated running?
weijian said 70%i think
xy said 80%
me?90%
lolx...today i think roger got angry with us
well, not i THINK
it's he IS angry with us...shouting too soft i guess.
but i tried my best already!
i DID shout all the way, just, probably not as loud as the others
Sorry
sorry
i'll try my best
and not think of HOW MANY MORE ROUNDS!
lately practice has got tough
stressful, tiring
woo...
but then, the camp is coming
we can't afford to be bad anymore!~
me too, lolx. missing so many days of practice, pulling back their pace
sorry again
roger is scary when he gets..erm...angry?
lolx...he SHOULD be...the way we are buchao-ing now
lolx...WAIT>
we're not THAT bad lah..
so, don't think of us as..so cham..
anyway, we're sarawak right?
i kinda remember hleong writing something on the floor today...
"flower hands add oil!"

p.s. 8th i can't go hleong house lah..parents don't give. SOB.gonna miss another thing><