sailing in a boat

ok
i just saw other people's blogs
and...well
i really envy them, you know
so sociable, dare to speak out
haiz
everytime at class
i tell myself to speak to them
but then
it feels so awkward
it's always, them all sitting doing hw or sth
and i go running there kacau-ing them
haizz
HAIZZ
HAIZZZZZZZz
in teenage years
(i wonder does it happen to u guys?)
i like want to do a LOT of things
learn a LOT of things
yet dont have the time nor the patience to do it
iknow~!so greedy!
im currently interested in art, music(guitar, electone, piano, drums)
dance(break dance, ballroom dance)..
oh.
another thing
this blog
because i lack of friends
this is just for personal writing
lol

heart

i kinda often felt out of place in pref.
feeling very...useless and...talentless
it's like...there's nothing i can do to help
im too...too useless
like.....
like pref. is so cold
and no one cares...
no one cares for talentless people like me..
but then
after this camp
i kinda think it over again
well
i didnt give pref. my 100%
so..
naturally i will feel cold
i will feel kind of out of place
i didnt believe in myself well enough
that's why the things i do just arent that good
i didnt give my heart to pref.

i decided
to try my best at pref.
so touching..this camp...
i really cried..

OVER

"i got OVER you"
yay
exam is FINALLY over
woo~hoo
lolz
it's the hols again...
it's going to be a weird holiday as it is only for one week
lolz!
so so so short....
and there's three days gone for camp...
argh,,,
no days for total relaxation
as in
sitting in front of radiation-due things(tv, computer)
the whole day without worries!!
i seem to have gotten kiddish nowadays..

EXAM SUCKS

"suck" hassome how became my favourite word
-describes myself
-describes exams
lol
studying kemahiran hidup for exam tomoro
HATE IT!
it's so boring and....
urgh...
no meaning
and it's all in malay!
URGH
the only good thing is that
it's all in "ABCD"
lol