沉默

"我喜欢沉默.沉默地躲在房间里读我喜欢读的书,做我爱做的事.然而,总有人要侵犯你好不容易得来的沉默时光.别人总说我太聒噪,不是个沉默的人.沉默真的有样可瞧吗?我怀疑.沉没就是不说话吗?它不可以是内心活动的一种吗?表面的沉默和内心的沉默有何差异吗?兴许,唯有在阅读时我是最沉默的."-南洋商报副刊

超爱的 :)

wonderful songs :) - Izi

Courtesy of Zora, i got to know this wonderful korean band - Izi

here are two of their songs~ very, very nice. Go to youtube to hear more.

Check this out Izi-Emergency room, which is the soundtrack of Sassy girl Chunhyang~ fabby :)

Saranghago Shapuso(i think i misspelled==)

Oduwo (dark)

blended.

Should we do what we like? go after our dreams, or do what we are best at?
What if what we like is not we are best at?
what if there is nothing that we are best at?
then should we choose what we like?
but what if what we are best at is not what we like?
should it be what we are best at or what we like?
Ikut hati mati, ikut rasa binasa, ikut mata buta.
so that means we should choose what is realistic instead of following our hearts?
but if that means choosing something we are best at but not what we like,
yeap the bread's there but where's the joy?
but then to survive, does joy play any part?
no, it seems. the important thing is to survive.
but without joy, how are we to survive?

this is stupid. =.=
i'll do whatever i want.

nostalgia. touched?

Took a look at a few long time no see friend's blogs
wow
how much everyone has changed
we are all so different from one another now
leading different sort of lives

everyone seems so mature now,
so, grown up

I feel like im still where i was,
never changed
yet somehow i have

wow.
that's all i can say.
wow.

maybe i better quicken my steps to keep up with others then :)
gambatte!

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy

I seem to be hooked with blogging

My current English teacher introduced me to the phrase all work and no play makes jack a dull boy
I can't stop agreeing with that
But of course,
For Jack to play he has to fulfill a few requirements first.
One, he has to think maturely and rationally, as to know when he should study and when not
Two, he has to have a high level of self discipline do that he will be able to stop playing and start working after some considerable time of leisure, which is not easy to do
Just this two requirements can make Jack have a head splitting headache over the merest possibility of achieving even just twenty percent of it.
Hence,
If Jack cannot do it,
It's better if Jack doesn't play at all
And focus on working
Otherwise,
He may not be a dull boy,
But he may become a good for nothing boy.

A sad conclusion,
A grim outlook of life,
But that's life for you!

Marry me! Mary

I don't know exactly why I am hooked to this drama
Probably because I just love the chemistry between the two main characters
It just feels very natural and homely,
How Mary tidys and cooks for him
And how he goes home earlier just to eat mary's dinner
And how he smiles whenever he receives her message
Or that they both are loyal to each other
With no confused state of minds
Like other dramas do
That can Get pretty annoying after some time.
Of course,
The cute jang guen suk helps too :)

Weirdo

I just read the newest issue of National Geographic
Which left me in doubts about the fact that I am a teenager.

I DON'T like taking risks
I don't party all night
I don't know how to drive
I have never dated before
Nor had a crush
Nor had a tattoo
Nor had a piercing
Not even on my ears
Probably due to the fact that I dont think there's any point to doing stuff that
Can pose harm to my body and most probably shorten my lifespan
I don't smoke I don't drink
Nor do I plan to
I don't like to go out much
I'd much prefer to sit in a coffee shop drinking dark mocha and reading a book
Or staying at home
Or watching movies whether at a cinema or friend's house
Then to roam about shopping malls with nothing to do

That sounds like a pretty boring life, doesn't it?
Well. It lacks the essence of a typical teenage life
If you compare it to whatever you read in the books, watch in the movies or stated in the article
Well. The best explanation I can come up with is only that
1. Due to the difference in western and Asian culture
2 I'm a goody two shoes
The second explanation seems to be more prominent although the first explanation works too
Ah well.
I'm sure I'm still a teenager, as I have the typical teenage syndromes of being hotheaded, negative, horrible mood swings,ignorant
So am I lucky that I only exhibit half of the typical teenager symptoms?
Or am I missing out in the golden ages of teens where you are suppose to have done outrageous things that will become wonderful memories in years to come?
Well. Who cares.
I'll live my teenage years the way I want it
Uniquely me.

Books,books and books!

The big bad wolf book sale is here!
Why oh why then must I be preparing for exams this year?
Why oh why that I have been denied from enjoying books this year?

Oh why oh why

Wait. I know why.
Because once I start reading, there's no stopping me until the book's finished from cover to cover.
Not enough self discipline, you can call that
Or that a book sucks you into a void that is hard to exit from until you finish it

Hmm.

Off the beaten road

Everyone seems to be going from introverted to extroverted, except me
I'm going the other way round

Whatever.

Ignore ignore

Everyday I seem to have a lot to write
But every time those things appear in my mind, there's no access to Internet

Woosh.
They're stuck in my head

I got a feeling..

Youtube has an invisible force that keeps pulling me towards it

i got a feeling im gonna fail my calculus test this friday.
i'm experienceing the failing feeling!!!
please, please no ><
i don't want history to be repeated again.

Seriously.

I used to think that cats are cute, adorable and absolutely lovable
That was until they started defaecating behind my house
Creating that awful odor
That makes me cringe every time I go to the kitchen
Excuse me, cats
That's MY backyard you're defaecating on
it's not a public toilet!
And to think that always used to treat you guys so well
To always give you guys sweet smiles and a little friendly meow whenever we meet
Argh!
I'm sorry but the meow has turn into a roar today
Wait. I'm NOT sorry
Your own fault for doing this to me
Is this how you treat a friend?:(
Unfriend unfriend!!


(I can't believe I'm fighting with cats==)

What am i doing here?

I can't believe im here when i should be sketching graphs!!
aah!
sometimes i really wonder how do people control themselves
there just seems to be this NOT switch in us(or maybe just me:( )
that makes our body do whatever that our brains tell us specifically, NOT to do
then after that, the brain will keep torturing us(or, maybe just me =.=)
for NOT doing whatever we were suppose to be doing, but ain't
then we'll(OR, maybe just ME o.o) feel guilty, bad
and shout into the air : HEY WHAT ARE YOU DOING! WASTING TIME!! AHHHH
then we'll( or, me=.=) complain to our( im getting tired of this. OR JUST ME) parents
that we (...) can't finish studying
booooo~
faults our ( you know what im going to say) own

like now,
i should be sketching graphs!!
NO! DON"T GO TOUCH YOUTUBE!
NONONO!
NO KDRAMA!!
even as i type this,
i know my fingers will be typing, www.youtube....

sad sad sad me :(

Waaaa

I really hate it when astro breaks connection during rainy days
Waaaa!
A drama watched halfway stopped at it's very climax moment
Astro!!
How can you do this to me!
Can't you have better connection?

:(

Monster

Par amore's monster rocks
More than linkin park's iridescent, even though they're both my favorite bands

I think that a monster lurks in me
Some horrible thoughts appear in my head all the time
Stuff that I know I should not be thinking,
Stiff that even a three year old knows its wrong
I always mentally slap myself after thinking these thoughts
And then feel disbelief that how I can think of such things

Luckily, they never come out.

Creepy, huh? What if I'm drjekyll and mr Hyde?
Better not let me drink any weird potions lately...

Beautiful :)

Golf courses are actually pretty
I got a glimpse of it as I passed by one huge, huge golf course surrounded by huge,huge trees this morning
Green grass, fresh air (looks fresh),old looking trees shrouded by a thin layer of mist
Reminiscent of the 2005film pride a prejudice
A girl dressed in an English dress running through the fields just fits the picture perfectly
:)
Sometimes this world is just so beautiful
Especially the tiniest parts where we tend to ignore normally

It's sad to see forests cleared to become acres upon acres of red, bare, bleeding soil
Can't you see that the land is bleeding??
And yet, for modernization they need to be sacrificed
Yeap. So just close your eyes and pretend not to see it when you pass them by, lest you feel their bleeding souls.