heart

i kinda often felt out of place in pref.
feeling very...useless and...talentless
it's like...there's nothing i can do to help
im too...too useless
like.....
like pref. is so cold
and no one cares...
no one cares for talentless people like me..
but then
after this camp
i kinda think it over again
well
i didnt give pref. my 100%
so..
naturally i will feel cold
i will feel kind of out of place
i didnt believe in myself well enough
that's why the things i do just arent that good
i didnt give my heart to pref.

i decided
to try my best at pref.
so touching..this camp...
i really cried..