seems like such a long time since i wrote here...

everytime i have loads to say in my head

but when i face this empty space, i don't know wat to write.

hmm

err

see?

urgh

there's so many things in the world

that i like

and want to try

but

this things

take time and money

and i

really don't have those things

especially with all the things and exams in school

i hav no time to do other stuff

which kills actually

that i cannot draw for a whole day

that i can't touch my guitar

where is my time??????????

is it my fault

or

the school's?

i think it's mine

hm

but

being a typical human

im wishing it aint

how to help?

i dont understand
hw people can get
affected by things around them
so easily
is it because they willingly want to?
is it because they just want to follow the trend?
is it because they're too lazy to think?
is it because they think they can benefit from it?
i don't know
there'r lots of people who might need help out there
in which
i don't know how to help
i really don't understand them
really
i feel so down sometimes
all,
suddenly
feel very self depressed
that i cant do much for them
that
my society gave me so much
and i have nothing, except time
to give
but
by giving my time
and i lose time
to do other things too
where's me?
y am i suddenly so
erm
serious or something?
huh..
is it because i m too busy?
why am i suddenly not like last time,
being able to be crazy every second
afraid
of breaking the rules nw
because
im afraid
i let others down
i dun have anything else to give
so the best i can do
is not let anyone down
==
guitar society
yin yue hui
7/8/08
thursday
after school
COME!
i will LOVE u if u come

back from pd
had quite a great time wif min and ru there
actually
it's kinda like an escape
from reality
as in, school...
all day
jus walking round the beach wif frens
eating
watching tv
sleeping
haha
im gonna get fat==

camps

i think, camps are like magic or something
every time i go to a camp,
i will get REALLY addicted to that thing(example,guitar camp- guitar, prefect camp-prefect)
and then, after the camp i will still be thinking about the camp and in a dream haze..........
well....
lol
i really have nothing to say except for.....
im very worried about my geometry
i dont want to THINK about it anymore
urgh

gathering

had great fun at the 46th gathering today
lol
Went crazy and kept shouting
i start to love and love and love prefect everyday
but then
i dont really have anything to give, i found out
i look at others and
wow, they are really talented and so!
i mean, they dare to show themselves(hong liang==)
and have great ideas(xie yiing==)
and blah.........
they're all so good

but me, i dont really come up with good ideas
and i have a problem of going 100% crazy
i can only do it with my friends
don't know why i can't when im with prefects.
hm...can only go up to 85% crazy
haiz
anyway
i will try my best=]
whenever i think of some prefects..
i wanna cry...
think of them in the past, so good, so "form"
haiz

The Difference

1. there wasn't so much homework during Jm1
2. It wasn't so quiet
3.It was quite stress free
4. we were quite pure then(not so during end of year..lol)
5.More freedom last time
6.More stress this year
7. Self depression++

anyway
anybody noticed this?
when u know someone
and well, become good friends
u start thinking that that person became beautiful
lol

Geografi project

went and interview people today
It started raining REALLY heavily today after school
and we had to borrow umbrellas from everyone
although we still got wet
my shoes were like wet sponges
gross..
saw yuyu,felicia and wei yi at mutiara
then we say puiwoon,ling er and si ting
hehe
we went to eat first
after ordering,
kaiyu,zishuang and jia wen went upstairs and interview whereas me, huiru and holi interviewd people from that level
lol
ate the food
so delicious!!
we continued interviewing
then we suddenly remembered our umbrellas were missing
had to run to the door and get the umbrella from the washing maid and the restaurant
ahhh
then we met weiren
he intereviwed two person
actually
he was bad-lucked
coz
lots of people he asked were either interviewed before or didnt want to interview