Wow

Two in one year,

Greed,

Immaturity,


Sadness.

?

i am ridden by guilt
i've realised my faults now.
Too greedy,
that has contributed to my fall
i feel guilty, horrible
now i understand why, why am i always losing the people around me
i'm sorry.
i'm always wanting things i can't get,
and when i get them, i want something else
That's why i always end up with nothing.

i'm sorry
it's probably too late,
but i'll cope with it
i hope i can learn to care and love one day.

Losing my touch,losing myself, losing..

Rock

I just finished typing a post
Which went missing
Adding to my frustration
I don't want to type it out again
But it feels lousy, to have no one
To be alone,
To have no one close,
To have missed opportunities
To battle with myself everyday
To w ant to cry yet the tears don't come
To

I don't know how to write
I'm supposed to be studying right now
If only people didn't have emotions
If only we didn't have to..
I can't even write that out
Because if I do
I will be judged
As I judge others too.
No one will agree anyway.
No one does
You'll most probably just brush me off and say, you? Mana possible..
Yet it is, and it's happening.

It is always difficult before it is easy

I. Disagree.
That's not true! It might be for a while, but
As life is,
Once you think so,ething is easy, some other hardship will present itself to you
And you'll regret ever thinking it was easy
Nothings easy,
No.
There will always be mountain after mountain of challenges waiting ahead of us
Waiting to be tamed
Or whatever
Wow.
Such a sad outlook of life ==

Guiltguiltguilt

I, am a seriously lousy person
Sometimes I tend to ignore people,
Make people feel left out,
Lose my patience,
Talk impolitely
I suck suck suck suck suck
Urgh
Sorry, people
It's just that the older I get,the more I tend to be
Unsocial able
So,so sorry.
I will try to control myself

Swallowed by guilt

The effects, of 1malaysia

Frankly speaking, I never had a problem with languages
As a Chinese,staying in Malaysia, I have had to learn and speak three languages all my life. Namely, Chinese,Malay and English
But seriously, now that I'm trying to improve them all by reading and writing more
The three languages all get muddled up in my mind!
I find it much easier to utter a sentence consisting of all three languages rather then just, one.
Good?
Nah. I face a lot of problems when I am conversing with people who only know one of those three languages
The words just don't come
My grammar switches between all three languages inconsistently
Truly Malaysian style, truly rojak
Wahhhhh TT macam mana!!!

Ps.this blogger keeps automatically changing my words to english. How am i suppose to type some other language?
It doesn't even Llow an error in my speellingg!

(hah! Just ignored it ==)