Everything is getting annoying lately. Especially on the matter regarding the future and where to go. Making such huge decisions are terrifying as you will Continuously worry about the consequences. Will the future me regret this decision? Each step I take seems to dictate my whole future hence must be pondered upon carefully. Yet considering something for so long and thorough doesn't ensure any comfort or confidence in choosing though. It just makes things worst. Sometimes I just want to make a rash decision and go with it, not bothering to think about all the tiny and confusing details. To just go with the flow and let life lead you wherever it wants to go. But of course, yo
Know that's never possible. I don't even think about it anymore. Just avoiding the matter altogether.
I am unable to fully digest and enjoy my books lately. I am unsure whether is it because of the nature of my books or the fact that I spent more time watching television this year then reading books, which used to be my favorite pastime. It sucks, seriously when my "improve your English! Learn the big words! Admire and remember all the beautiful adjectives!" mode kicks in and makes me more focused on the "mechanical"side of english thus denying me the pleasure of indulging in the story of the novel. This is what I do when I prepare for exams and somehow it has become some sort of a habit that totally destroys my passion of reading. Oh dang. Please don't take my world of novels away from me? And please don't criticize what I read and watch too, nor keep dropping hints on what I should be reading or watching. Yu know I would do the exact opposite and that will suck the pleasure out of my favorite hobbies too.
Last but not least, the spell check is annoying when typing names but incredibly helpful when typing blogs. Irony.
2011年12月18日 星期日
Look at the time!
It's December19,2011.
two more weeks to January, 2012
and i am not enrolled in any school yet
still undecided
AND i'm still wasting my time typing this blog, searching for Tanya Chua's songs,
planning to meet Zora, watching Sherlock Holmes 2's trailer
hmm.
Let's not waste time talking about what an utter loser i am.
Let's talk about Cameron!
Well. I was a little worried at first, as i didn't know a lot of people that well actually
but i had a blast during the trip.
The noisiest trip ever, with non-stop chats
AND non- stop "Shh!!!" when the driver was talking in the phone
thank you all for giving me this wonderful memory
i will always, always remember how we had fun
doing the stupidest things ever,
taking the lame-st pictures ever,
and chatting about everything under the sun.
thanks :D
two more weeks to January, 2012
and i am not enrolled in any school yet
still undecided
AND i'm still wasting my time typing this blog, searching for Tanya Chua's songs,
planning to meet Zora, watching Sherlock Holmes 2's trailer
hmm.
Let's not waste time talking about what an utter loser i am.
Let's talk about Cameron!
Well. I was a little worried at first, as i didn't know a lot of people that well actually
but i had a blast during the trip.
The noisiest trip ever, with non-stop chats
AND non- stop "Shh!!!" when the driver was talking in the phone
thank you all for giving me this wonderful memory
i will always, always remember how we had fun
doing the stupidest things ever,
taking the lame-st pictures ever,
and chatting about everything under the sun.
thanks :D
2011年12月12日 星期一
seriously
this sucks.
i have so many things to do that i never get round to doing it
there's always some excuse to NOT do it
there's always some distraction around
so many decisions to make!
it sucks!
i have all these resolutions in my mind,
that i know i will most probably never achieve
i'm always saying that i want to improve my english
but i never do.
always distracted. maybe that's my motto=.=
anyways
lately a lot of friends have been going out for trips together with their gangs
and leaving sweet memories together with each other
i envy you guys, seriously!
i don't hang out in a gang, only with random friends
and i'm a lazy butt,
so probably going on trips just makes me go :" ohh.. tiring=="
yet i crave for it. Told ya i'm a mess.
always contradicting myself
like right now,
the bucket of clothes that are waiting to be hung,
is triggering my contradict-o system now
which retrieves data from the bank of excuses,
but of course, on the way to the bank it actually has to pass by
the department of guilt and responsibility
and also the department of counter-attack.
my contradict-o system is quite strong though.
"wait! i have to use the computer! i'm suppose to look up the ADP universities now!"
"GO HANG THE CLOTHES"
"no... i have to pack my bag :( "
"you wanna hang clothes in the afternoon? during the night? JUST DO IT!"
"no no no...please!! im blogging! i have to go flickr too!"
"why are you so obsessed with entertainment all the time? just a simple chore and you can't do it?"
...
get the picture?
i have so many things to do that i never get round to doing it
there's always some excuse to NOT do it
there's always some distraction around
so many decisions to make!
it sucks!
i have all these resolutions in my mind,
that i know i will most probably never achieve
i'm always saying that i want to improve my english
but i never do.
always distracted. maybe that's my motto=.=
anyways
lately a lot of friends have been going out for trips together with their gangs
and leaving sweet memories together with each other
i envy you guys, seriously!
i don't hang out in a gang, only with random friends
and i'm a lazy butt,
so probably going on trips just makes me go :" ohh.. tiring=="
yet i crave for it. Told ya i'm a mess.
always contradicting myself
like right now,
the bucket of clothes that are waiting to be hung,
is triggering my contradict-o system now
which retrieves data from the bank of excuses,
but of course, on the way to the bank it actually has to pass by
the department of guilt and responsibility
and also the department of counter-attack.
my contradict-o system is quite strong though.
"wait! i have to use the computer! i'm suppose to look up the ADP universities now!"
"GO HANG THE CLOTHES"
"no... i have to pack my bag :( "
"you wanna hang clothes in the afternoon? during the night? JUST DO IT!"
"no no no...please!! im blogging! i have to go flickr too!"
"why are you so obsessed with entertainment all the time? just a simple chore and you can't do it?"
...
get the picture?
2011年12月8日 星期四
hmm hmm
blogger is better. definitely.
i tried to open another blog so that i c an write stuff that i don't want people to know about
(not that people read this blog anyway. everyone seems to have abandoned blogger :( )
tried Tumblr.
probably because i'm a newbie there
i don't know how to use it
and it seems weird to write personal stuff there
probably it's still new to me and we haven't got to know each other well enough yet
unlike blogger, my dear blog, of whom i have known for years
so don't be jealous, dear blog. i will try to get to know Tumblr too.
i seem to be falling back into the same traps i fell into long ago
how i climbed out of the holes,
i remember, but it seems like i have to keep reminding NOT to fall back again
don't i get naturally acquired immunity?
it'll become tiring having to pick after myself all the time
wary of tricks and traps that my mind sets for me
boo hoo... go away guys
i will have an immunity against you, you wait and see
i will produce antibodies strong enough ti "lysis" you. erm.
illogical lol. who cares. Bio is over.
i tried to open another blog so that i c an write stuff that i don't want people to know about
(not that people read this blog anyway. everyone seems to have abandoned blogger :( )
tried Tumblr.
probably because i'm a newbie there
i don't know how to use it
and it seems weird to write personal stuff there
probably it's still new to me and we haven't got to know each other well enough yet
unlike blogger, my dear blog, of whom i have known for years
so don't be jealous, dear blog. i will try to get to know Tumblr too.
i seem to be falling back into the same traps i fell into long ago
how i climbed out of the holes,
i remember, but it seems like i have to keep reminding NOT to fall back again
don't i get naturally acquired immunity?
it'll become tiring having to pick after myself all the time
wary of tricks and traps that my mind sets for me
boo hoo... go away guys
i will have an immunity against you, you wait and see
i will produce antibodies strong enough ti "lysis" you. erm.
illogical lol. who cares. Bio is over.
2011年12月5日 星期一
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