gathering

had great fun at the 46th gathering today
lol
Went crazy and kept shouting
i start to love and love and love prefect everyday
but then
i dont really have anything to give, i found out
i look at others and
wow, they are really talented and so!
i mean, they dare to show themselves(hong liang==)
and have great ideas(xie yiing==)
and blah.........
they're all so good

but me, i dont really come up with good ideas
and i have a problem of going 100% crazy
i can only do it with my friends
don't know why i can't when im with prefects.
hm...can only go up to 85% crazy
haiz
anyway
i will try my best=]
whenever i think of some prefects..
i wanna cry...
think of them in the past, so good, so "form"
haiz

The Difference

1. there wasn't so much homework during Jm1
2. It wasn't so quiet
3.It was quite stress free
4. we were quite pure then(not so during end of year..lol)
5.More freedom last time
6.More stress this year
7. Self depression++

anyway
anybody noticed this?
when u know someone
and well, become good friends
u start thinking that that person became beautiful
lol

Geografi project

went and interview people today
It started raining REALLY heavily today after school
and we had to borrow umbrellas from everyone
although we still got wet
my shoes were like wet sponges
gross..
saw yuyu,felicia and wei yi at mutiara
then we say puiwoon,ling er and si ting
hehe
we went to eat first
after ordering,
kaiyu,zishuang and jia wen went upstairs and interview whereas me, huiru and holi interviewd people from that level
lol
ate the food
so delicious!!
we continued interviewing
then we suddenly remembered our umbrellas were missing
had to run to the door and get the umbrella from the washing maid and the restaurant
ahhh
then we met weiren
he intereviwed two person
actually
he was bad-lucked
coz
lots of people he asked were either interviewed before or didnt want to interview

Far far away...

a child's mind, world is pure and simple
~although it seems to get more polluted nowadays
saw the REALLY talented guitarist 11 year old boy-Sungha jung's video
wow
he's so great...
then i start thinking
i dont really particularly ace anywhere, heh?
that day, during tuanke
i kept talking
and then someone asked me: walau, u r actually so noisy de ah
i started thinking AGAIN
well
sometimes i really think that there's a wall between me and my xuehui
i have no idea why but
i just dont feel really comfortable in it
as in,
afraid or something
i suddenly get very quiet
and suddenly get very noisy
i have no idea what's wrong
besides,
everyone is so talented and good at what they are doing
haiz
i dunno?
i dont think anyonewill know what i feel and think anyway
since that
i dont really show my feelings

Sharing~

chatted to my friend today
and well, she says that
she thinks she's got lots of problems and
is like, burdening us with it
and she feels like we're helping her but she isn't helping us
that makes me think about this~
my problems
what made her think that she isnt helping?
i don't know, but
it might be due to lack of sharing
come to think of it,
i dont think i really tell out my problems to anyone
they just kind of float around,
then disappear after some time,
resurface again
then i will try to solve it myself
i know now.
i dont share much, do i?
always going around, thinking ive got lots of problems
and kind of grumbling that no one knows how to solve them
when it is my own fault
that i dont share
i dont tell,
so no one knows
although my problems are weird
really weird
they all happen because of myself,
thinking,worrying,complaining
too much
or maybe im just selfish
hmm
maybe i should put my heart out?

hehehe

it's 4/4 today
no school
and guess what?
i go all..erm.....RELAXED
and don't even feel like studying!!!
AAHHH
i finally finish watching NOdame Cantabile live action
SO NICE!
the songs were...
so so touching and nice
made me fall in love with music
we have to read "liao zhai"
hate it!
ghost stories?
i hate it!

sailing in a boat

ok
i just saw other people's blogs
and...well
i really envy them, you know
so sociable, dare to speak out
haiz
everytime at class
i tell myself to speak to them
but then
it feels so awkward
it's always, them all sitting doing hw or sth
and i go running there kacau-ing them
haizz
HAIZZ
HAIZZZZZZZz
in teenage years
(i wonder does it happen to u guys?)
i like want to do a LOT of things
learn a LOT of things
yet dont have the time nor the patience to do it
iknow~!so greedy!
im currently interested in art, music(guitar, electone, piano, drums)
dance(break dance, ballroom dance)..
oh.
another thing
this blog
because i lack of friends
this is just for personal writing
lol