Control freak!!

why am i such a control freak??
i cannot live through a day peacefully if i don't plan ahead
and write down all the things i have to do on a post-it note
i can't!!
i have to plan all stuff ahead of holidays so i won't feel so uncomfortable
YET
i am so lazy to plan
and manage and even THINK about planning
i need to go to a meeting on thursday
but i don't know how(transport) to go
i want to go to a concert on thursday night(SOUL)[ahkam gt perform ler!!!!]
but i have no transport
i feel like going out with the "guitar people"[lol] on friday[ahkam gt go lerr!!]
but i am a bit lazy and don't dare to ask my mum and am afraid i will be lonely
mm
see the contradiction?
oh right
the gathering yesterday was AWESOME!
so fun!playing in the rain^^