Backstep

Ever had the feeling of instant regret for taking a decision?
The kind where when you MADE the decision, you knew you were going to regret it sometime later but you decide to take a chance and test your limits.
Of course, the regrets DO come and you are left feeling worst then ever,
trying to live in denial and pure bull-headedness against any advice given

currently i'm lost in this limbo now, stuck wondering whether or not this career is suitable for me. Everything seems to point otherwise, deeming me totally incompatible with it. I seem to lack to many of the job's essential requirements and i'm starting to lose heart, lose faith. Who knew what i was thinking back then that i could hold on to something till the end? But i know that nothing comes without perseverence and diligence. I'm only feeling this way because of my own fault, for not trying hard enough and hoping to achieve success without contributing or striving. That's a lousy mindset of a loser, definitely. Please, work harder.