Infatuation

Maybe it's because I feel lonely. This feeling is digging on me all the time, prompting me to pick a subject from my mind to be possessed about, creating fantasies and non-existent attachments to it. I know it's not there, it's surreal, it's just my imagination but sometimes it becomes so real that it chokes me, pushes me to the brim. It's going to affect my relationships with others, definitely. But it's not something that I want to lose just so soon after i've acquired it. Definitely not over some tricks that my mind plays on me. My subconscious mind may be saying something to me, something that I know already but have no power to address currently. No power, no ability. Desire is definitely there, but there are more essential things to worry about. I hope this infatuation ends before it engulfs me.